Monday, January 31, 2011

Jeremiah 29:11

Do you ever let your posts sit in the 'warming drawer' for a few hours before you post?  Save to drafts but not publish?  Sometimes I feel like I should let them "mature" but sometimes I just need to be honest with myself and post things as they fly off my fingertips and onto my keyboard.  Raw.  


I am officially transitioning roles at work, effective tomorrow.  I am really excited about this opportunity to experience different sides of the industry and expand my knowledge base.   It will be a great experience, and I have an opportunity to hit a home run.

However, there was a time in my very recent past when I wasn't quite sure what I would be doing.  With what company.  In what city.  In what industry.  The fear, frustration, and the unknown were paralyzing and all-consuming.  So many terrible thoughts ran through my head- all the what ifs. What if I- the primary bread winner until Lash finished med school {already a frightening idea in itself, hehe :) }- was unable to provide for our dear family to be?

I spent many a sleepless nights tossing and turning in agony.  I used to never understand sometimes if my dad had a rough day at work and brought his frustration home.  We used to call it being on the war path.  Now, I get the joke. . . . and I'm afraid to admit I was probably on the war path for a month.  


However, as things have unfolded and my uncertainities were turned to certainties, I can now look back with confidence and say that I am thankful for the challenge, the trials, and frustrations because during that time, I had to cling to the cross.


The verse, "do not be anxious" was seriously every corner I turned.  Luci's intouch ministries daily devotion, my boss' letter he put on my chair, my daily conversations with my parents, Lash's reassurances, my friends' texts.


And, every step I took, I heard, "For I know the plans I have for you."  Sometimes it was louder than others, but all the while, I knew someone had big plans for me.

I tell you this- perhaps as assurances for whatever you are experiencing- that there is One who is faithful who loves you and is saying, "I KNOW THE plans I have for YOU.  I know.  THE plans. I have for YOU."


Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Phillippians 4:6

3 comments:

  1. I have Jeremiah 29:11 painted on a little wooden plaque propped up on the window in front of our kitchen sink, where I read it many times a day...it's my favorite verse and there have been times where I've literally sat on the floor in tears while holding it, reading it out loud over and over. I love it because we want to plan out every detail of our lives and our future, but really God is the one in control, and only He knows what he has in store for us---and when things seem to be out of our control, we need to realize that they really are! But that's okay, because our Lord has plans to prosper, plans to give us hope and a future. That verse is just so reassuring--when things are going well AND when things aren't. :)

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  2. Love and need this post today! You go girl!

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  3. Well said! Thank you for that uplifting reminder and those thoughtful words. Your timing was impeccable!

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